hey everyone!

hm... i just thought that i should say this in this short post.

well... firstly, i'm sorry for making some of you worried or wondering why i suddenly changed and keep more to myself. just thought that i should explain.

the important thing that all of you should know is that i'm not angry with any of you, though in these 2 days (was it just 2?), i seem to be mad at you guys.

these 2 days, it just seems like too many things all happen at the same time, making me both physically, mentally and emotionally unstable. also, these 2 days, i've been thinking of a lot of things. thinking too much, really. so i'm sorry if in these days, i don't even listen to conversations anymore. really really sorry.

well... today i've been thinking again. thinking another thing other than what i've been thinking before. i tried to remember what i did with my friends in the last days- what we talked about, what we laughed about and what i did. And then i realised that i don't even remember. my mind was too preoccupied with thoughts that i seem to not care anymore. I feel that i've been thinking too much and... hey! my friends are there for me whenever i need them. and i feel really bad for making you guys worried for me. i hate it to see any of you feeling sad or worried for me. and i hate myself more for bringing and letting you guys down.

hence, i'll do my very very best to be myself once more. happier and smile more :D

i just realised that it isn't right for me to keep pulling you guys into my complicated life and making you suffer.

i'm really really really really sorry for everything that have happened, not only these days, but also for all the time that we've been hanging out.

once more, i'm sorry. and please always remember that i'll never be mad at you guys. i know your major flaws, but i'll still love you anyway. that's what friends are right? (darunee, sounds familiar? haha.)

well, that's all for this post then.

love all of you lots

jannie